The Noise Within

“Be still, and know that I am God.” — Psalm 46:10 (NIV)

I am not a “still” person.

Even when my body is technically sitting still, my brain has apparently decided it’s training for an ultramarathon. It runs laps between tomorrow’s to-do list, a random conversation from 2018, whether I remembered to move the laundry (no, I never do), an idea for a writing, and the sudden realization that I should probably Google why flamingos stand on one leg (it is physically easier and requires less muscular effort than standing on two, who knew?). If there were an Olympic event for mental ping-pong, I’d at least medal.

I kind of always assumed this was simply my personality. I’m driven, curious, creative - always thinking. And while some of that is true, I’ve slowly realized that constant mental movement isn’t always the same thing as peace. Sometimes it’s just...noise.

We often think of quietness as external circumstances. A peaceful cabin in the mountains. A phone on Do Not Disturb. An empty calendar. A morning without notifications. But Scripture describes something much deeper than silence. It describes quietness as an inner posture.

A quiet heart isn’t necessarily one that has fewer responsibilities. It’s one that has greater confidence.

Isaiah says, “In quietness and trust shall be your strength” (Isaiah 30:15). That’s such a fascinating pairing. Quietness isn’t produced by having everything under control; it’s produced by trusting the One who does.

The more I’ve thought about it, the more I’ve realized that my internal noise often comes from trying to mentally manage things God never asked me to carry. I rehearse conversations that haven’t happened. I solve problems that don’t exist yet. I write contingency plans for contingency plans. My mind is working overtime trying to be sovereign.

Spoiler alert: I’m not!

Quietness isn’t pretending life isn’t complicated. It’s surrendering the illusion that I have to control every complicated thing.

When I trust God, I submit to His will. When I submit, I obey. And obedience has a funny way of quieting the heart because I’m no longer arguing with God about who’s actually in charge.

It’s difficult to hear directions from the passenger seat when you’re constantly grabbing for the steering wheel…

Psalm 46:10 doesn’t simply say, “Be still.” It says, “Be still, and know that I am God.”

The command isn’t merely about stopping activity; it’s about remembering identity. God is God. I am not. Somehow that truth is both incredibly humbling and unbelievably freeing.

I’ve also noticed something else throughout this season where God has significantly lessened my workload: noise doesn’t always come from my schedule. Sometimes it comes from my heart.

Actually, if I’m being honest, most of the time it comes from my heart.

Think about it. How many times this week have you asked someone, “How are you?” only to hear, “Good...just busy”? Better yet, how many times have you said it?

Somewhere along the way, “busy” became less of a description and more of a badge of honor. We wear it like proof that we’re important, productive, needed, or successful. We fill every margin, answer emails while standing in line, listen to podcasts while folding laundry, and instinctively reach for our phones the moment there’s five seconds of silence. We’ve become so accustomed to constant input that quiet almost feels uncomfortable.

There are certainly seasons when life is genuinely full. Jesus Himself had incredibly demanding days. The issue isn’t that our calendars occasionally overflow; it’s that our souls never stop running.

A few months ago, God graciously slowed my schedule in ways I wouldn’t have chosen for myself. I expected that with fewer obligations would come immediate peace. Instead, I discovered something surprising: even when my calendar quieted down, my mind didn’t. Actually, it might have gotten louder! (Annoying.)

The external noise had diminished, but the internal noise was alive and well. That’s when I realized my schedule wasn’t the primary problem. My heart was.

Proverbs 4:23 tells us, “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”

If my heart is anxious, striving, fearful, or trying to control every outcome, I’ll carry noise with me no matter how empty my calendar looks.

And Scripture points to another source of inner unrest that we don’t talk about nearly enough: sin.

Unconfessed sin has a way of making even the quietest room feel loud. Conviction interrupts every attempt at peace because our hearts were never designed to comfortably coexist with disobedience. Isaiah 48:22 says, “’There is no peace,’ says the Lord, ‘for the wicked.’” It’s not because God is withholding peace from His children, but because sin itself disturbs the soul. We cannot cling to what separates us from God while expecting to enjoy the quiet confidence that comes from walking closely with Him.

I think that’s why David prayed so honestly, “Search me, O God, and know my heart” (Psalm 139:23). Before asking God to change his circumstances, he invited Him to expose whatever was creating noise within.

Sometimes what we need isn’t a less crowded calendar…Sometimes we need a surrendered heart.

You can’t cling to sin while expecting the tranquility that comes from surrender. And maybe that’s why cultivating quietness is called a discipline. It doesn’t happen accidentally.

It means intentionally breaking the habit of constant noise. It means sitting with God without feeling the need to fill every second with words. It means opening Scripture not to check off a Bible reading plan, but to actually listen. It means confessing sin quickly instead of letting it quietly occupy space in our hearts. It means practicing obedience in the small things, trusting that every “yes” to God makes our hearts a little less divided.

Ecclesiastes reminds us that chasing after everything eventually leaves us grasping at the wind. (Ecclesiastes 1:14). A divided mind is exhausting. A surrendered mind, however, can finally rest.

Ironically, learning to be quiet doesn’t make us less effective. It makes us more present. We listen better. We discern more clearly. We make wiser decisions because we’re no longer reacting to every anxious thought that races through our minds.

The world often equates success with constant motion. God seems far more interested in teaching us confidence.

Not confidence in ourselves - Confidence in Him.

So if your mind also feels like twenty-seven browser tabs are open—and somehow one of them is playing music you can’t find—know this: God isn’t inviting you to become a different personality. He’s inviting you to become a different kind of person.

A person whose heart is tranquil because it’s anchored. A person whose confidence is no longer in their ability to anticipate every outcome but in God’s ability to hold every outcome.

Maybe that’s what biblical quietness really is - Not the absence of thoughts. The absence of panic because we’ve finally remembered who is in control.

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